"Don't cry because they left. Just smile because 

they gave you a chance to find someone better."

x

They left, I cried. They threw me away without a single hesitation of wanting me back. Friendships are gone and forever lost for no longer shall I be with the people I adore most. Here in my room, thinking of the past and what might have been if we have stuck together. Surely, they never look back -- as if I was not their friend for four years. They talked behind my back as if I didn't know. I was hurting with no one to run to. 

I never knew this would happen for we always talk about the future and attending each other's weddings. Sadly, they left and so did I but this does not mean I stopped thinking about them and hoping that one day I'd be their friend again. 

I don't want to reach out for I don't want to appear clingy and desperate. And besides, I have no face left to show them. We drifted apart and ran out of things to say unlike before that a day with them would not be enough for all the things we need to tell each other. 

So here I am hoping for the best as I look at their photos with a little hint of regret. Without them in my life, I never would have met another set of friends who accepts me for who I am and listens to what I have to say.

I know I'm not a terrible person but it looks like they were never meant to be in my life for the long haul.

So I bid them goodbye and hopefully I can move on because this scar has not been healed since the day they broke my heart. :(

TTFN.

i never really thought it would end up this way. we used to talk about everything. about love, school crushes, problems, happy memories and even sad ones. we used to lean on to each other when someone is in trouble... we used to be so perfect.

i guess things change and i can't force all of you to stay.

it is sad seeing 4 years of our friendship gone down the drain. it's sad how we used to tell each other that we'll stick together no matter where we go to, whom we hang out with and what will happen -- may it be good or bad.

we were in it for the long haul. i guess not.

how come i am here and you are there? i don't get it. whatever happened to "no one should be left behind?" it makes me feel sad that you didn't talk to me. that you didn't give me a chance to tell my side of the story. it is sad that you just listened to her because she's the one you're always hanging out with. unfair, isn't it?

it is painful on my part on seeing how strong your friendship grew. didn't you remember everything we have gone through? the laugh trips, the spontaneous adventures, the crazy ideas we came up with?

i guess for me, high school is over. i could never bring back what happened. everything changed when i decided to post what i felt in my multiply account. why can't you see that i'm hurting? i'm trying my best to be happy and to forget everything but i failed... so bad.

i miss you. all of you.

sometimes i just wish i haven't met you so that it won't hurt this bad.

TTFN.