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I Long for the Days of the Sun
Sunday, March 9, 2014 @ 3:44 AM | 0 Comment [s]
"There are two ways to get enough: one is to accumulate more and the other is to desire less."
What is happiness? What is love? What is it that we want? What is contentment? What is freedom? Are we pushed to do this or what? I walk among the people with the hopes of becoming someone memorable. I walk among them because I don't know where to go, lost in the sea of people who are one of the same. Same drive, same motivations but different desires -- freedom and passion. Shall I cross the paths that they have crossed or find another way to go? Is the dark and narrower road more worthy of risking everything than a desirable one showered with flowers and brightened up by the rays of the sun? Is dropping everything for the sake of my own happiness worth it at all? Does not thinking of other people really doesn't matter? Or is it just me that I shall think about? Am I happy? Am I contended? Is this what I want or something more? Is chasing my dreams worth it just to become someone I always hoped to be? Or have I given up with the thoughts of never achieving anything? I long for the days of the sun, for the tress swaying and for the wind cool enough to give me a sigh of relief that everything went well -- that I am happy. But as of now, I must endure this road -- one that I must take to help me realize what I want and what I hope to be. TTFN. Labels: challenges, happiness, life, work Windows of the World
Thursday, March 25, 2010 @ 12:56 PM | 0 Comment [s]
 "be thankful of the hard time in your life. try not to look at them as bad things, but as opportunities to grow and learn" seven years ago, i was a first year High School student and i almost died. seven years ago, death never came up in my mind nor did i think i was so close to dying. it wasn't any illness that hit me. it was something far more unimaginable than that. something was missing in my body. sad to say, i wasn't born fully developed as a human being. the pain i felt was eating me inside. devouring every piece of me, making me feel paralyzed. most of the time, i would crouch down, hands on my tummy, crying and sweating at the same time. when i can't bear the pain anymore, i would lay down on the floor, ask help and just shout as if it would cause the pain to go away. i was confused on what was happening to me -- to my body. i thought it was a punishment but whatever it was, it helped me see how beautiful life is regardless of how much pain it caused me. i thought i would die at a very young age. i was afraid of what was going on around me. then the operation day came. all i remembered was i was in a room full of doctors or nurses. i guess they were astounded of my condition since i'm the second patient in that hospital to undergo that procedure. the hospital was built in 1901. i was operated in July of 2003. they were able to collect almost 3 liters of bad fluid in my body. the fluid, if not stopped, would cause to poison me. i woke up in the recovery room. i was surrounded with large lamps to make me feel warm. since then, i'm able to live my life normally. no more crouching down and shouting for help. though my absence caused me to fail 5 subjects, i was still thankful of the second life the Lord has given me. i saw the sunset and i witnessed it rise. TTFN. Labels: happiness, life, pain, trails so much for my happy ending
Thursday, June 4, 2009 @ 8:23 PM | 0 Comment [s]
 Danielle: a bird may love a fish, signore, but where would they live? Da Vinci: then i shall have to make yo wings. -Ever After Beauty and the Beast, Aquamarine, Notting Hill, Memoirs of a Geisha, Pride and Prejudice, Suzanne's Diary for Nicholas are just examples of stories / movies that ended up happily. almost all of the stories i've read and all of the movies i've seen always have happy endings. i believe they should not let people especially children think that the world is a happy place to live for it is not. we all stumble from time to time. fairy tales may give us lessons after every story but it also let children think that happy endings do exist. but they don't. this is reality and i believe we should give them a piece of it. people are clouding up their mind with fantasies, magical creatures, magic and prince charming. almost every girl wants their own prince charming and almost every girls wants to end up being a princess or a queen of some land. as for me, i don't believe on those stuffs. i don't believe a guy would save me from the fortress of the sky, breaking the evil witch's spell and bring me in his castle and making me his queen. i believe in suffering, pain, sacrifices and reality. it'll just end when i turn into dust. i will continue to live in this very cruel world until i die. delusions of grandeur is a huge no-no for me. TTFN. Labels: happiness, life, life lessons, reality I Love Him Near Enough
Tuesday, March 24, 2009 @ 5:54 PM | 0 Comment [s]
 "find a heart that will love you at your worst and arms that will hold you at your weakest." i have no idea on why i kept on posting sad stories about my heart and it's issues. i think it should do me more good if i will post something happy right now. after all, i am happy. :] i met him when i was in second year high school. i have no idea on how we exactly met but all i can remember was that we used to go out drinking together. he has this smile that can actually melt my heart, a face that can surely complete my day, a voice that sounds like a musical harmony when he says my name, eyes that can take my breath away every time he looks at me and a sense of humor that never fails to make me laugh when i needed it the most. then, without notice, he went somewhere else. it took me two years to know where he is right now. after all, i wasn't into him that much back in high school and i don't know why i'm into him this much now that he's gone. the time i saw his new friendster account was the time things started to change. we made fun of each other and laugh at the most dirtiest things. that time was the time he broke up with his girlfriend. i never knew it at that moment since he kept on laughing and smiling (i was viewing his webcam) the entire evening. i then figured out when he said that i made him happy and that i was his dose of happy pills. he told me not to change coz i seem to have a potential to make people happy. gah, i can't even make myself happy. >.> then, things really started to change big time. he want something from me. the thing that i treasure most was the thing that he wants to get. out of the blue, i said yes. i don't even know why i uttered those words but i do have a theory, though. maybe because i like him and i want him to have it since i don't want any guys to have it and i think he's the right one to take it away from me. the promise was made. at first, i thought he was just kidding but then when time passed by, he told me he's serious. so, yeah... i guess i have no choice but to give it to him. after all, i like the guy. ;] 6 days after he officially broke up with his girlfriend, he then found someone new. i was tormented actually but then i realized that long distance relationships never works so i decided to let it go. i thought things between us would change. to my surprise, it didn't. we still talk about things that are beyond our imaginations and end up laughing at them. :) he keep on telling me to wait for him. my question is, is he even worth the wait? hmm. i do hope so. what bothers me is that, he has a girlfriend already and why the hell does he want me to wait for him? that's one answer i'm longing to hear. it's been 5 days now since i last heard of him. and i kinda miss him. also, I DON'T WANNA BE THE EVIL WITCH HE TRIES TO GET IN BETWEEN. i'm actually trying me best to ignore him in all possible ways that i could but he just keeps on springing back. what's happening to me right now is what actually happened to me four years ago. i don't want history to repeat itself nor would i want to experience that terrible pain again. i am just going with the flow. :)) Labels: changes, happiness, life, love |
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