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Thinking
Monday, August 24, 2009 @ 7:41 PM | 0 Comment [s]
 "she's been hurt many times before this. you'd think it would be a routine by now. you'd think she wouldn't let it get to her. but the truth is, she trusted you." i have no idea if i still like him but i sometimes caught myself reading back all the messages he sent to me including all those comments he posted in my friendster account. i kinda felt sorry for myself only because i let him ruin me. come to think of it, he let me wait for him and then what? he got himself a girlfriend. awesome. just awesome. so what's the point in waiting for him, right? i've given up months ago and why do i still have feelings for him regardless of the things he did to me? i'm just so confused. everything just changed. i'm not a big fan of change. well, bad change that is. so here i am, thinking of what i really feel towards this guy. it must not be love, i can assure myself that. maybe its just a plain infatuation? i don't know. all i want to know is why i still have a thing towards this guy. i just want to not like him anymore and just move on with my life the same way he has moved on with his. all i want is to be numb. to not feel anything and to live my life painlessly. Labels: boy, changes, life, love, numb numb
Sunday, November 2, 2008 @ 8:28 PM | 2 Comment [s]
 i guess i was numb. i thought it was over but i'm dead wrong -- AGAIN. one morning, i woke up and BOOM -- here comes pain. it was very unlikely. i thought i was over him and then, out of the blue, it hit me. i wasn't over him. i was numb for the past year. now here i am, sullen by the thought of him. i find it kind of irritating. no matter how i try to forget him and just move on with my life, i just can't. it pisses me off. i want to beat myself for letting him do this to me. it's not even worth it -- he's not worth it. i want to wake up one day and not feel anything. i want to look at him and not feel anything but mere friendship. i was expecting to much. maybe that's the reason why it hurts like hell.
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