"If you hold back your feelings because you're afraid of getting hurt,

you end up hurting anyway."

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There are days that I just want to break free. Run. Get away from the stupidity, drama and insanity of it all. There are times where I just want to burst in flames, break glass or even scream. There are moments where I want to break someone's face, cause injury or even punch the wall. There are some instances where I just.. I want to.. I've got to but I can't and I couldn't.

I'm a volcano waiting to explode. I'm a ticking time bomb. Slowly and painfully I am loosing my patience. I'm so tired of accepting people's shit. So tired of saying "yes" all the time and most of all, I am so tired of getting kicked at, stepped on and being taken for granted of. 

All I want to do is cry and curl in my bed until I fall asleep but my eyes got tired of crying and my tears went dry from falling. I am a hollow shell. I feel empty and belittled. My heart aches from all the pain it witnessed and felt. My brain is tired from telling myself to be strong and to not break down but that's all I want to do but I can't because breaking down is useless. Crying is useless. Feeling sorry for myself is useless.

The only thing I could do now is take a deep breath, close my eyes and stand strong until I can't stand anymore.

TTFN.