i have no idea on why i kept on posting sad stories about my heart and it's issues. i think it should do me more good if i will post something happy right now. after all, i am happy. :]

i met him when i was in second year high school. i have no idea on how we exactly met but all i can remember was that we used to go out drinking together.

he has this smile that can actually melt my heart, a face that can surely complete my day, a voice that sounds like a musical harmony when he says my name, eyes that can take my breath away every time he looks at me and a sense of humor that never fails to make me laugh when i needed it the most. 

then, without notice, he went somewhere else.

it took me two years to know where he is right now. after all, i wasn't into him that much back in high school and i don't know why i'm into him this much now that he's gone. 

the time i saw his new friendster account was the time things started to change. we made fun of each other and laugh at the most dirtiest things. that time was the time he broke up with his girlfriend. i never knew it at that moment since he kept on laughing and smiling (i was viewing his webcam) the entire evening. i then figured out when he said that i made him happy and that i was his dose of happy pills. he told me not to change coz i seem to have a potential to make people happy. gah, i can't even make myself happy. >.>

then, things really started to change big time.

he want something from me. the thing that i treasure most was the thing that he wants to get. out of the blue, i said yes. i don't even know why i uttered those words but i do have a theory, though. maybe because i like him and i want him to have it since i don't want any guys to have it and i think he's the right one to take it away from me. 

the promise was made. 

at first, i thought he was just kidding but then when time passed by, he told me he's serious. so, yeah... i guess i have no choice but to give it to him. after all, i like the guy. ;]

6 days after he officially broke up with his girlfriend, he then found someone new. i was tormented actually but then i realized that long distance relationships never works so i decided to let it go. i thought things between us would change. to my surprise, it didn't. we still talk about things that are beyond our imaginations and end up laughing at them. :)

he keep on telling me to wait for him. my question is, is he even worth the wait? hmm. i do hope so. what bothers me is that, he has a girlfriend already and why the hell does he want me to wait for him? that's one answer i'm longing to hear.

it's been 5 days now since i last heard of him. and i kinda miss him.

also, I DON'T WANNA BE THE EVIL WITCH HE TRIES TO GET IN BETWEEN. i'm actually trying me best to ignore him in all possible ways that i could but he just keeps on springing back. 

what's happening to me right now is what actually happened to me four years ago. i don't want history to repeat itself nor would i want to experience that terrible pain again. i am just going with the flow. :))