I look upon the horizon, watch as the sun fades from the sky and witness a few stars glitter as the clouds continues to move. A beautiful picture I can never forget. The tides are slowly changing and so are the people I came to know and love. Big changes are happening --- even life altering. I can see their smiles, hear their hearts races or even watch the color of their cheeks change from pale to rosy pink. Definitely a big change.

I feel jealous and then I can feel my skin starting to crawl down from my spine all the way up to my neck. Happiness surrounds them and certainty. As for me, still indecisive, still stagnant, still stuck. I've always dreamed of a beautiful bliss -- something or even someone (who) that can sweep me off my feet, fly me to my destination and have me come to realize the change I've been craving for for so long. A beautiful moment I can never forget and will never feel a hint of regret. And when I remember it, all it gives me are beautiful colors and maybe even butterflies in my stomach that I can't even help myself but smile. I want that bliss. No, I need that bliss.

Hungry for change but at the same time scared of it. Nothing is permanent but change. Nothing is more beautiful yet scary but change. We've all wanted it, craved for it and sometimes, made it happen coz it never did. I tried to take a step forward but all I ever did was take a step back -- farther and farther from something so beautiful yet could be ugly at the same time. I'm pulling myself down. Down from the beautiful shoreline to the deep, dark abyss that is the unknown. Away from everyone I know and the world I grew up in. Away from the beautiful blue sky, the cool breeze and the warmth of the sun.

I wait in the corner for someone to take me to a new dimension.



TTFN.

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