-Benjamin Franklin

i am mad but i can't show it. i am frustrated but i am trying to hide it. i am sad but i am showing a happy face. with this, my emotions are distorted. somehow, i want to break down and just cry myself to sleep. or better yet, i want to scream on top of my lungs until i am out of breath.

walls come crashing down as i feel all these mixed emotions inside. i want to go out of hiding and just bitch to all the people who has caused me pain. i might not deserve happiness but i don't deserve much pain either. i want to feel contend with what life has given me but i always fall short, always out of luck, always hurting. 

with that in mind, i want to be free. free from all the misery and all the unsaid emotions i push down inside of me. i want to end this repression and i want to feel how great it is to have an outspoken mind. without grudges, without hurt and without being trapped inside one's own anger.

TTFN.