i have reached to some points in my life where i have struggled but here i am, still standing up.

in those points, it made me realized that i can't easily be defeated. i don't easily wave my white flag up. it's hard for me to give up something i have worked so hard on.

people would always say that I AM HAPPY. well, quite true but i'm not. i'm pretty much shattered but i don't let them see it. 

look, something horrible happened to me years ago. i have loved and lost and my true friends left me. those experiences molded me to become a better person. i have learned not to fall down. no one helped me in those days that i was broken. i was facing it by myself. those instances made me strong and made me realized that i can't take anyone with me in this journey through life.

my friend used me as an inspiration. he's pretty much going through a rough path right now. and he told me, "you made in through. why can't i, right?" i haven't made it through yet. i'm still getting there. 

it's actually hard for me to basically move on coz i don't have anyone to turn to. i have friends, yes, but they are not there all the time. i guess it's a good idea for me to do this alone. it'll make me stronger than before.

i'm happy of the outcome of this. i am glad to be standing up after all the hardships i have encountered and i am satisfied with almost everything that is going through with my life right now. 

i guess people need to fall down sometimes but for me, it is not an option.