Tuesday, October 19, 2010.
"sometimes, i feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear. and I can't help but ask myself how much I let the fear take the wheel and steer. It's driven me before and it seems to have a vague, haunting mass appeal. But lately I'm beginning to find that I should be the one behind the wheel."
-Incubus, Drive
i live in sorrow, scorned by my past actions, forever tormented by the people i love and hurt. i was in a trance and i had a very hard time finding my way to snap back into reality and face the demons that are waiting for me.
i had a choice -- to either come back or be in limbo forever. i was damaged and was looking for enlightenment until someone decided to see through me, know what i'm thinking and catch a glimpse of my soul.
luckily, someone was watching me from a distance. hoping that i would change, she gave me her trust and for that, i gave her no reason to be dissapointed of me.
i can say i was afraid coz if i wasn't, i wouldn't be caught in the web of fiction. everything was a blur - an unfathomable experience i can never be sure of. but i recalled being happy and carefree. i was fun but not anymore. as days grow by, i watched myself drift apart from the people that surrounds me nothing but love and kindness. i'm slowly starting to become a loner.
i was almost dragged down the abyss but i pulled through. i reinvented myself to help get me out of trouble, to make someone be proud of me.
TTFN.
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