what am i but a mere mortal lurking in this planet. i'm not perfect nor close to perfection. i have never in my life got contented of what i have. more is what i always crave for. more money, more friends, more gadgets, more books and more awesome stuffs to splurge to.

i am nothing but a human being incapable of achieving great power. i am nothing more but a teenager hungry for fun, affection and love. i am nothing but a student struggling to pass college and most of all, i am nothing but a daughter who deceives my parents to get what i want because they restrain me from doing so.

beer, crack, smoke. stuffs that tempt me to become a lesser human being. whatever i do, it's always there. people drinking and smoking right in front of me, rubbing it in on my face, telling me to join them. human as i am, it has always been a struggle for me to flee away from these temptations. i give in and accepted the consequences life has given me.

i have no one to turn to. i face my problems alone. yes, i do have friends and yes, i tell them my problems but never did i ask for their help to solve it. lonesome? no. independent? yes. fucked up? probably. strong? i'm going there.

"PEOPLE ARE BRINGING YOU DOWN! STEP UP FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!" uhh. no. i am rubber, they are glue. whatever false, awful rumors they have said about me will just bounce back and it will stick to them. trust me, i am rubber and they are glue.

"life is short. sin a little." <--- enough said.

TTFN.