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i was never meant to be crushed. :(
Sunday, January 18, 2009 @ 1:38 PM | 0 Comment [s]
 "Painted with the hell of trials A girl shaped by a thousand fires Cut deep by the sharpest years Only He can bare rainbow tears" for a psychology student, i'm having a very hard time keeping myself sane. people always think that i'm superficial. i'm not. i just happened to like good looking guys with good attitudes. he broke the wall that i was trying to re-build. i didn't even reach half-way yet and then BOOM. he destroyed it. :( i was devastated coz it was hard for me to re-build it and now here i am, building it again. he didn't do me any good at all. at first, it was fun but as the days went by, it wasn't anymore. i was unsure of the things he said. i was questioning myself if i should believe him or not. he has been boggling my mind lately. he has given me mixed signals which i can't even decipher. should i let him in? should i allow myself to be in the open again? should i believe in the words he said? should i not take it as a joke? should i let myself be humiliated? was he just playing me? should i play along? what should i do? many questions are popping up in my mind and i can't even answer one of them. >.> then i saw his status message. he typed the name of his [ex] girlfriend. basically, that settles everything. it's all clear now. i told him i missed him. he said okie. he used to say, "i miss you too" or anything that will brighten up my day. but he didn't he just said, "okie." which kinda made me feel... i dunno... bad. then i posted something in the bulletin board. he asked me if he was the one i was referring to. he got it right. i didn't told him it was him, though. maybe he got butthurt or something. well, serves him right. one of my guy friends told me he got my back and that he's always there whenever my life gets all tangled up. it was kinda sweet of him to say it. his message made my day. so, from now on, i'll be very careful. Labels: heartaches, pain, strong, trials |
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