"Will you think that you're alone when no one's there to hold you hand?

When all you know seems so far away 

and everything is temporary, rest your head

I'm permanent."

-David Cook

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There you are! then you disappear. Make up your mind -- make up all of your minds. No longer shall I be your temporary love affairs. No more summer flings, "taking it easy," or just "hanging out" with me. No more sick jokes, see you later's or I'll call you's. Enough. I've had enough.

For as long as I can remember, I have been asking God to give me someone I could lean on to, someone who doesn't leave when he feels like it. Someone who is present and is cheering me on every step that I will take. I'm not asking for much -- all I want is someone I could relate to, cuddle in the sofa, have great and spontaneous adventures with, go to the movies and take me home afterwards. I want a serious relationship. I want a man -- not a boy who wants nothing but a toy to play with.

Waiting and waiting but still being played with. Waiting and waiting but still nothing.

Sometimes, I think that I'll end up all alone but I don't want a pity party. I don't want to go through great lengths, swim the Pacific Ocean or even climb Mt. Everest just to impress a guy. No, I want him to love me for me like love at first sight kinda thing -- that he couldn't take his mind off me or something. Like a beautiful blissful moment I could hold onto for as long as I will live.

So please, wherever you are -- I'm here. Come see me. :)

TTFN.