seven years ago, i was a first year High School student and i almost died.

seven years ago, death never came up in my mind nor did i think i was so close to dying. it wasn't any illness that hit me. it was something far more unimaginable than that. something was missing in my body. sad to say, i wasn't born fully developed as a human being.

the pain i felt was eating me inside. devouring every piece of me, making me feel paralyzed. most of the time, i would crouch down, hands on my tummy, crying and sweating at the same time. when i can't bear the pain anymore, i would lay down on the floor, ask help and just shout as if it would cause the pain to go away.

i was confused on what was happening to me -- to my body. i thought it was a punishment but whatever it was, it helped me see how beautiful life is regardless of how much pain it caused me.

i thought i would die at a very young age. i was afraid of what was going on around me. then the operation day came. all i remembered was i was in a room full of doctors or nurses. i guess they were astounded of my condition since i'm the second patient in that hospital to undergo that procedure. the hospital was built in 1901. i was operated in July of 2003.

they were able to collect almost 3 liters of bad fluid in my body. the fluid, if not stopped, would cause to poison me.

i woke up in the recovery room. i was surrounded with large lamps to make me feel warm.

since then, i'm able to live my life normally. no more crouching down and shouting for help. though my absence caused me to fail 5 subjects, i was still thankful of the second life the Lord has given me.

i saw the sunset and i witnessed it rise.

TTFN.

-Boyzone

-Eric Clapton

you were mine for quite sometime. 4 years had passed and we found closure. you said i left you. i didn't but i took the blame coz i don't see the point of disagreeing anyway. it was dawn and i was tired. you said you were lonely when i left. so did i. you said you wanted to fill the gap that you are feeling. so did i. at that moment, i felt a connection between us. again, we were talking the way we used to talk 4 years ago.

then i made an out-of-the-blue suggestion. you were astounded. so was i. never did i expect those words to come out of my mouth. i was confused of what was happing. it was so fast. four years of not talking and it only took you 4 hours to make my feelings towards you somewhat 'active' again.

that night was surreal. i thought it was just a dream but it wasn't since your messages are in my inbox. it was more of a bliss, actually.

i thought it was the best time to start where we left off. i thought it was serious -- i thought you were serious. again, i hoped but i should know not to.

you said you wanted to see me. i wanted to see you, too. to actually spend time with you before you go to another continent. but sad to say, when it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be. i didn't bother asking you to come see me coz you always find ways to make excuses. if you want to see me, you would.

news really do fly fast. you wanted to get back with your ex. i am your ex but i wasn't the ex you wanted to get back with.

for 2 weeks, you managed to make me feel like i'm floating down to the making me feel like shit. it was painful but i can manage like i always do. i am strong and with what happened between us made me realize even more that i am too good for you. yes, i am because i don't and will never beat you up unlike the person you are with and chose to be with right now.

what's meant to be will always find its way. if we are meant for each other, time will come that we'll be together again. for the mean time, have fun and enjoy every moment you have.

i am disappointed of what you did. i don't like being in the dark and i have every right to know that you got back with your ex. it was rude, really but i can't do anything about that anymore. i now am having this feeling that you were having a revenge. serves me right for 'leaving you', yeah?

we all know that you left me and we all know that you are leaving me.

TTFN